Scared

I am scared and confused; and as has been the trend over the past few months, meloncholy due to the restlessness, due to the feeling of purposelessness.
Reasons are many, nevertheless, I think I have become prone to complaining, and brooding a lot of over perhaps not so important things. And becoming less self-dependent, trusting too much, not taking decisions myself.
And hence the scary feeling, of the feeling of being stupid, being the average joe. This is not who I am, and this is not who I will be. I will bounce back. Not sure how...sigh; but will find a way. Have to, there is no alternative.